Ok so once more I apologise for not updating recently myself and my parents haven’t been well and we’re still recovering.
So last week I saw the doctor and we talked about snap, crackle and pop.
She’s concerned about the fact I hear voices and that they have personalities. I’m being referred to the resource centre again for help because that’s the first step. I need a diagnosis and they’re the people to get it from.
I’m nervous that they’ll just think I’m out right crazy (which I feel anyway) and won’t know how to help.
Only time will tell.
I’ve got my walking frame from Norway, it’s amazing and so sturdy too. It’s the biggest help. I’ve had to buy a hinged knee support because my right knee has started giving out on me. I’ve dislocated my left knee so many times and the right has been taking all the weight. I refuse to have an operation on it as I’ve been there and done that on my left knee. It was fine for two ish years and then I was right back where I started. Mum had a similar operation and it’s made her’s worse. I can’t take that risk and anyway, it saves the NHS some money.
I won’t lie, I’d love a hip to ankle hinged support but a) NHS won’t help me because they’d rather waste money on an operation and b) I can’t afford to buy it privately. It’s one of the reasons I started a go fund me page because there’s stuff I need that I can’t physically afford or get help with from the NHS.
I’m still really angry about the looks I get wheb using my crutches and now my frame. Yes I’m fucking disabled. No, I’m sorry, it’s not visible unless I wear supports and straps (which are really comfy I have to admit). Just because you can’t see it doesn’t mean it’s not there.
That’s my biggest gripe with society. They can’t see it so it can’t be real.
I’ve had my earlobes reconstructed. I’ll post pics as soon as I’m allowed to do so. They’re very itchy and still a little sore however they’re looking great. 6 months and I can have them re pierced. I’m very excited.
I think that’s about it for now. Thanks for reading my ramblings.