Monthly Archives: April 2015

Snap

So I’ve made posts about my voices before but I honestly can’t remember if I’ve gone in depth or not.  Apologies in advance if this is just a repeat.  There will be what’s going on NOW after the break.

Snap – makes me hate myself, everything about myself. Anything bad that happens I deserve. I always had it coming to me. He makes me self harm and believe I deserve to be scarred. I see him with flames.

Crackle – eloquent shit with long words like eloquent. Makes me seem like I ate a dictionary for my breakfast.  He wears a monocle.

Pop – giggly funny drunk. When I find something hilarious this is the guy who comes out. This is who makes me giggle like a looney.   9 times out of 10 when I’m drunk you can say hi to pop.

And they aren’t just voices. They present themselves as personalities.  Which leaves people walking on eggshells incase SNAP appears.

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RIP

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1935 (?)-2015

Wherever you are, you’re in a better place; you’ll be fit , healthy and whole again. 

I know we had our disagreements however I also know you always had my back in life and now death. I love you lots and I wish I had seen you before you died so I could have told you.  Deep down I hope you knew.

I always remember my 18th birthday party when you got tipsy (drunk) on sherry or gin. You got up to leave around 8pm and there were balloons in the way. You turned your stick around and you played golf yelling “four”, i pointed out that was only one so you yelled “four” until you had hit four of the balloons. We all laughed and it’s a memory I will treasure.

I giggle when I think of you jokingly threatening grandad with your stick and looking at him over your glasses when he passed a funny comment directed at you.  I will also remember fondly the love you had in your eyes for each other.

Grandad is doing okay and I think that’s because you’re still with him, helping him heal. I know you’ll always be with us.

Love you lots Nana. RIP and don’t pinch too many bums where you are. Pace yourself 😀