Untitled ramblings

I dunno how I feel.

I wanna scream, laugh, cry and sit in a corner hugging a bottle of JD.

I feel numb but I feel like all my nerves are on edge at the same time.


I’m gonna watch my gran die…. And I don’t know how I’m gonna be able to take that mentally.

I don’t remember much about when my gramps died. I remember seeing him in hospital and he had an oxygen mask on…. I said he looked like an elephant and he didn’t even have the strength to laugh or smile.

I guess I’m scared of gran just giving up. I want her suffering to end; watching her breathless is terrifying.

But I always thought she was gonna live forever. Stupid I know.

This will all make sense when tomorrow’s post goes out.

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