an awful lot has been happening over the last 7 days and it’s probably best to start from the beginning.
(life and medical update – this is a LONG one!)
A week ago yesterday (30th August) the person whom i have called my father for my entire life admitted (when faced with evidence) that he had in fact been conducting an affair with a woman who was supposed to be my mum’s best friend, for the last TWO YEARS.
I refuse to change any names so i will use their real names cuz they aren’t innocent and so fuck that; i’m not protecting them.
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Hello world. Meet Shelby; she is the newest member of our family. She will be 4 on August 20th this year and is a Jack Russell crossed with Welsh Corgi (we think) and we rehomed her last Sunday 10th (?) of August from Woodgreen in Godmanchester (England of course).
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so early last week i got a letter from my GP telling me i NEEDED to make an appointment to see her. i did so and got in today.
im luckily seeing and endocrinologist on august 10th. just as well because my oestrogen level is low (not so low its really an issue however its low enough to cause concern and throw up a red flag.
another red flag is my prolactin level is apparently sky high and right now we’re hoping it’s related to my meds so one of them has been changed. i had no clue wtf prolactin was so i googled it and google is NOT my friend. i’m praying its medication related because i am terrified of the alternative. my anxiety is peaking right now and i’m on the verge of tears because of how scared i am.
i dont want to hear those words.
Ok so once more I apologise for not updating recently myself and my parents haven’t been well and we’re still recovering.
So last week I saw the doctor and we talked about snap, crackle and pop.
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OK so I recently posted something to instagram (http://instagram.com/p/wZa0NWomf1 ) and I want to expand on it a little more.
A few years ago after a very heavy drinking session including absinthe, I had a mini stroke. At first I didn’t think it had affected me that badly – a bit confused and weak on the left side but nothing terrible. Over the following weeks it became very apparent that my mental state had changed for the worse. I was already depressed but I had got it under control without the need for medication (which made me feel like I was a zombie). Three weeks after my mini stroke I was back on medication at a much higher dose than before. I also became angry quicker because I couldn’t actually show any other emotion. I was told by some friends my demeanour had changed, I became short and snapped a lot and my brain didn’t always engage properly so I didn’t (and still don’t) always think of someone else first and though I can still empathise with people it sometimes doesn’t work properly. Two ish years later I had another mini stroke caused by stress so everything got worse on that front and my brain is basically fuzzled.
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OK so if you’re a regular reader you know i have weird ass dreams last night was a damned doozy!
this is just what i can remember after the fact, i KNOW there’s a lot missing.
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i saw the doctor this morning, my GP. she’s lovely.
told her what i could remember about what happens to me and she is concerned. doesn’t know exactly whats going on but she upped my meds (Pizotifen) again, which confuses me cuz i thought i was already on the highest dose.
Continue reading Doctor, Doctor Please….