Blood Means Nothing

I will preface this with a CW.

There’s a lot of pent-up anger directed at two family members in this post.

Like… A lot; bordering on rage.

So the entire thing will go behind a cut.

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Questioning Beliefs. Is there a God?

It’s not until the hands of death reach for a loved one that we start questioning any of our beliefs… At least that’s what I’ve found about myself.

This blog won’t be for everyone and please know that NONE of what I say is meant to cause offence. I need to get shit off my chest and I feel this is the only way I can do it.

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An Apology to #MattLucas

Dear Mr. M. Lucas,

This is long overdue and has been playing on my mind a lot recently. I made similar posts on former blogs before now, hoping you'd see them… and now I hope you haven't because I distinctly remember trying to justify myself.

There is no justification for the disgraceful and heartless "joke" I reposted on Twitter many years ago about yourself and your late husband.

For the longest time I would shrug it off by saying I didn't ever think you would see it, didn't know it was the real you replying and some other ridiculous excuses to make myself feel better.
The truth is none of that matters or makes it better and I should never have posted it in the first place. I was cocky, idiotic and cold hearted…. please know, I am no longer that person. I now take issues such as depression, self harm and suicide very seriously and know they are never a joke and shouldn't ever be any form of entertainment. I should have known back then and obviously I didn't.

I made an insurmountable mistake and royally fucked up and I cannot begin to imagine the hurt seeing that tweet caused you. With everything within me, I apologise unreservedly.

I hope you do see this and please know, that this mistake has not & will not be repeated. Ever.

I'm not looking for forgiveness; only for you to know that I want to be as far away as possible from the person I was back then. I have grown and matured through experiences I wouldn't ever wish on anyone, and I am ashamed of myself for what I posted.

I am so very sorry.

Yours Sincerely
Miss K.P. Hall. (Twitter: @KatVonHall )

Note: I can't remember the Twitter name I was using back then. I do know I deleted the account when I started a new one.

The Dark Side of BoPo Community – Elitists

I have considered myself a firm member of the body positive community for a rather long time.  I underatand where it came from, how it started and why it was needed.

The rest of this post is going to talk about and weight loss so there’s your content warning and here is the jump…

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Weight Loss & Body Positivity

I want to preface this with a content warning and place it all under a cut as it does deal with weight loss and as someone who still fights an eating disorder – I understand.  So PLEASE, if you feel this post will trigger you in ANY way, don’t read on.  I totally get it and understand.  
Recovery is always possible and attainable.

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Not Disabled Enough…?

I haven’t actually written about my disabilities and how they impact my day to day life for a while.  This isn’t because they haven’t been affecting me, but simply because when I’ve passed comments I’ve found that certain areas of the disabled community (and society…. I’ll get there) seem to think it’s a competition of some sort and that some people just aren’t “disabled enough”;  for what exactly I’m not 100% sure.

What I am sure about is that just because I don’t “look disabled” doesn’t mean my disability can be written off or ignored & invalidated and when I say the words “I am disabled”, I shouldn’t have to prove it to anyone.

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The First Time… #SexBlog

I meant to do this much sooner than I have; however I wanted to get it all written out, or at least my thoughts written down so I knew where I was gonna go with this.
I figured the best way was to just go point by point of a tumblr post (surprise surprise), that meant well but is actually quite problematic for many.

So here is the post….

And after the jump we’ll go through it together.  

  • I also wish to note that this whole post refers to penis-in-vagina intercourse.

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RIP Beauty Standards [#BodyPositivityForAll]

Quite a harsh title, I’ll give you that… However it should be true. 

This blog started as one thing and turned into a battle cry of sorts…. But I am legitimately not upset about that… Keep reading…

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13 Reasons Why

…Normally I wouldn’t post two blogs in a week but, after finishing the Netflix series 13 Reasons Why I had to get my thoughts down.  I made this post in a FB group and realised shortly after that, I should share it as much as I can.  I don’t wanna stay silent… That’s the point, or one of them, of the series. 

If you wanna read my last blog about feeling abandoned, click the link.  

However…. First.  Please read my experience… And if you’re feeling suicidal or struggling with self harm, bullying ….anything….. please PLEASE seek help.  It is out there, I promise you. Life will get better and there is never any shame in asking for help. 

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