Dear Mr. M. Lucas,
This is long overdue and has been playing on my mind a lot recently. I made similar posts on former blogs before now, hoping you'd see them… and now I hope you haven't because I distinctly remember trying to justify myself.
There is no justification for the disgraceful and heartless "joke" I reposted on Twitter many years ago about yourself and your late husband.
For the longest time I would shrug it off by saying I didn't ever think you would see it, didn't know it was the real you replying and some other ridiculous excuses to make myself feel better.
The truth is none of that matters or makes it better and I should never have posted it in the first place. I was cocky, idiotic and cold hearted…. please know, I am no longer that person. I now take issues such as depression, self harm and suicide very seriously and know they are never a joke and shouldn't ever be any form of entertainment. I should have known back then and obviously I didn't.
I made an insurmountable mistake and royally fucked up and I cannot begin to imagine the hurt seeing that tweet caused you. With everything within me, I apologise unreservedly.
I hope you do see this and please know, that this mistake has not & will not be repeated. Ever.
I'm not looking for forgiveness; only for you to know that I want to be as far away as possible from the person I was back then. I have grown and matured through experiences I wouldn't ever wish on anyone, and I am ashamed of myself for what I posted.
I am so very sorry.
Miss K.P. Hall. (Twitter: @KatVonHall )
Note: I can't remember the Twitter name I was using back then. I do know I deleted the account when I started a new one.
OK so imma add in a little background info about just why im so excited about PokemonGo.
If you’re new to my blog – I have depression, borderline personality, bipolar and depression.
when pokemon first came out, we didn’t have the money for the handheld or the games. they were just far too expensive, so while everyone was playing the card game or the Gameboy, I had a sega mega drive (which I absolutely loved, it was my first gaming console).
Continue reading how PokemonGo is helping me battle depression.
I’ve actually been wanting to do this blog for a while and I’ve never really been able to put into words what it’s like.
After today I think I have the descriptions down. And yes….. this will get VERY VERY TMI.
Continue reading TMI – FMS things no-one talks about
I’ll put a trigger warning of anxiety, stress and specifically family stress/anger/upset and everything will be after the break.
Continue reading I’m so f-kn done (family rant)
Due to the current issues I was sent for a mental health assessment on emergency. I’ve already been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and now it seems I’m on the bipolar scale and my anxiety is back.
Continue reading TW: depression/self harm. (Had an emergency mental health assessment)
I wrote this last night…. About midnight while having a breakdown.
I just told my mum that I may have to go to see my gf because of timing/money/previous plans/ease….
Continue reading TW for anxiety/depression/self harm
Seems to me like anxiety is the new bisexual.
Couple of years ago everyone was bisexual (and I’m not talking bicurious cuz I think everyone goes through that at some point) I mean full on bisexual. It was the “cool” or “in” thing to be.
Continue reading Anxiety – an unpopular opinion
so early last week i got a letter from my GP telling me i NEEDED to make an appointment to see her. i did so and got in today.
im luckily seeing and endocrinologist on august 10th. just as well because my oestrogen level is low (not so low its really an issue however its low enough to cause concern and throw up a red flag.
another red flag is my prolactin level is apparently sky high and right now we’re hoping it’s related to my meds so one of them has been changed. i had no clue wtf prolactin was so i googled it and google is NOT my friend. i’m praying its medication related because i am terrified of the alternative. my anxiety is peaking right now and i’m on the verge of tears because of how scared i am.
i dont want to hear those words.
I’ve seen a lot of these types if posts and I want to share my story. Firstly I wanna say I’m sorry for my lack of activity. There’s a lot been happening but that’s for another day.
Read on for my story.
Continue reading Mental Health
To talk about stuff that nobody likes to talk about.
Along with fibromyalgia, one of the issues is IBBS. irritable bowel and bladder syndrome. Even the smallest amount of stress can set it off and I’ve not exactly been having a good time recently. I’m gonna open up and be frank, because if I didn’t then there would be no point to this blog and I would simply be lying to everyone.
Continue reading That time….. (opening up)