Dear Mr. M. Lucas,
This is long overdue and has been playing on my mind a lot recently. I made similar posts on former blogs before now, hoping you'd see them… and now I hope you haven't because I distinctly remember trying to justify myself.
There is no justification for the disgraceful and heartless "joke" I reposted on Twitter many years ago about yourself and your late husband.
For the longest time I would shrug it off by saying I didn't ever think you would see it, didn't know it was the real you replying and some other ridiculous excuses to make myself feel better.
The truth is none of that matters or makes it better and I should never have posted it in the first place. I was cocky, idiotic and cold hearted…. please know, I am no longer that person. I now take issues such as depression, self harm and suicide very seriously and know they are never a joke and shouldn't ever be any form of entertainment. I should have known back then and obviously I didn't.
I made an insurmountable mistake and royally fucked up and I cannot begin to imagine the hurt seeing that tweet caused you. With everything within me, I apologise unreservedly.
I hope you do see this and please know, that this mistake has not & will not be repeated. Ever.
I'm not looking for forgiveness; only for you to know that I want to be as far away as possible from the person I was back then. I have grown and matured through experiences I wouldn't ever wish on anyone, and I am ashamed of myself for what I posted.
I am so very sorry.
Miss K.P. Hall. (Twitter: @KatVonHall )
Note: I can't remember the Twitter name I was using back then. I do know I deleted the account when I started a new one.
Ah… it’s a chronic illness blog – I’m gonna class this in my Fibro Updates tag, however this whole blog applies to every single chronic illness out there (I see you spoonies. I see you.)
Read on…. it may be a long one… I like to be thorough.
Continue reading Don’t Say These Things
I’m staring blanky at the page and i have no clue where to even start with this blog so… It may jump around but, right now that’s what my brain is like.
Gran has lost the plot and her marbles are starting to scatter at an alarming rate. You cant hold a conversation with her because what you say and what she hears, aren’t in sync.
Continue reading Gran and health stuff
OK so imma add in a little background info about just why im so excited about PokemonGo.
If you’re new to my blog – I have depression, borderline personality, bipolar and depression.
when pokemon first came out, we didn’t have the money for the handheld or the games. they were just far too expensive, so while everyone was playing the card game or the Gameboy, I had a sega mega drive (which I absolutely loved, it was my first gaming console).
Continue reading how PokemonGo is helping me battle depression.
No word of a lie.
I have mental health issues and I’m an empath. So with everything going in around here I’m at breaking point.
Two days ago I had a mini melt down and it all started because I tried to change my septum and it all fucked up and I lost the piercing.
Cue me having a meltdown and sobbing uncontrollably against my mum.
Continue reading I need a Vacation
Is it weird that right now, with everything else going on in my life, all I want to do is meet you for coffee and ask you why?
Continue reading Is it weird….
I’m slightly drunk, I’m tearful and I have thousands of thoughts running through my head…. It’s 01.36 on Jan 1st and the only way I’m gonna sleep is to blog and get it out of my head (or at least just a few thoughts…)
It may be a new year but is it really a whole new start…. At least yet? How can it be a new start when we’re still being bombarded from all sides with enough shit (figuratively) to keep a field nicely covered?
On Wednesday we found out my Gran has lung cancer. She’s 80 and smokes 30-40 a day, she has no intention of stopping as she says “the damage is done.” I can see her point but considering she’s not having chemo, only radiotherapy which is less invasive, stopping her habbit would at least prolong her time on this earth and would definitely help with her current 40% lung capacity and 72% blood oxygen level (I believe normal levels are between 93-97%).
Continue reading New year, New start…. But is it?
If you don’t know what painsomnia is its when you’re in so much pain you can’t sleep.
My meds didn’t do anything for me last night and I have no clue why…..well I do and I don’t.
Continue reading Painsomnia is a bitch
Due to the current issues I was sent for a mental health assessment on emergency. I’ve already been diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and now it seems I’m on the bipolar scale and my anxiety is back.
Continue reading TW: depression/self harm. (Had an emergency mental health assessment)
Seems to me like anxiety is the new bisexual.
Couple of years ago everyone was bisexual (and I’m not talking bicurious cuz I think everyone goes through that at some point) I mean full on bisexual. It was the “cool” or “in” thing to be.
Continue reading Anxiety – an unpopular opinion